The Tzadik Syndrome/Complex

this little shpiel is in honor of a "emiser chosed"
R' Hillel Particher a'h whose yartziet is on Yud - Alef Menachem Av
i called it the "Tzaddik Syndrome/Complex" v'dal...


The Tzadik Syndrome/Complex.....

soooo....u want to be a tzaddik....well...
are u a hidden tzaddik....or a revealed one....

or just maybe ur a revealed one trying to hide or a hidden one waiting to be revealed....

a tzaddik to be ..or a tzaddik wanna be....

so lets see ... when did this inner desire to be so righteous begin..
before or after the sin...

maybe it would be better to see who u really are... not what u desire
others or urself to think u are- namley:

...Ah Tzadik! Oooh! Ahhhh! A Tzaddik ...A Tzaddik..with a capital T.

Nu to me it seems ...that this whole "Tzaddik Businesss"..if u want to get into this "gesheft"...

is not be be at all ...total self nulification and no being at all. "ain oid melvado"
will do just fine...with or without another tzaddik..don't u see...

soo....instead of making ursef "Be a tzaddik..." with a capital B.

try to be a benoni even if it is spelled in a lower case b.

as R' Hillel said after learning a bit of Tanya: "Halevai A Benonie"!
omen v'omen